Quest for Passion

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Passion.

What is passion? And how do you determine what yours is? I’m 31 years old and I don’t know what my passion is anymore. How did that happen? I remember I used to be passionate about a lot of things. Sure, they changed over the years, but I always had something to direct a tonne of my energy towards.

Let’s recap.

In high school, back when I lived in Canada, I loved to learn. I worked hard and I got excellent grades. And while I was in high school, I was also in sea cadets, where I spent 5-7 nights a week having incredible adventures with them. I was always busy and I was always happy.

In university, I was always crazy busy. I studied, worked on campus in a job that I actually loved, joined the campus gay club, and then joined a Toronto based marching band. I was busy, and I loved every gosh darn second of it! I thrived on the routine, the structure, the time commitments.

While I was at university, my passion changed to moving to Scotland. It was all that I wanted, so I did it. Though I realised that it wasn’t where I was meant to be, I learned a lot about myself and that I loved to travel.

When I returned back to Canada, although I was probably the  happiest I’ve ever been, there wasn’t anything I was overly passionate about anymore. That was 10 years ago and I haven’t found that thing that makes my heart burst since. Sure, I’ve tried plenty: I have been backpacking, moved to Northern Ireland, bought a house, joined (and since left) the sea cadets, travelled through Southeast Asia, opened a business, failed at the business, and have had a plethora of other jobs in between all this.

I’m finding myself a bit directionless, and it’s time that changed. When my boyfriend, Thom, asked me the other day what I was passionate about, I just looked at him.

I like to crochet, I like coffee, I like to cook, I like to game, I like to write, I like to travel. Now it’s just finding how to make all these likes into a love and a passion and a dream.

Will you join me on this quest? Is there something you want to focus on? Let’s do this together!

Cef

4 thoughts on “Quest for Passion

  1. thelifeofasolivagant May 26, 2017 / 12:52

    I hear ya girl. I have always been passionate about teaching elementary school, it was my dream my whole life. But this last year or two I realize it’s not where my passion lies. I love literature. Reading it and writing it. I want to teach High School English and inspire others to love them as well. Your passion can change and there is nothing wrong with that, but I think it’s important to try things out and see where your passions lie and follow it, until it doesn’t serve you anymore. Just cause something is your passion, doesn’t mean it’s forever… just like you can love someone, but it doesn’t always last forever.

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    • cefpabda May 26, 2017 / 12:19

      Yes, you are exactly right! I know this year has been hard for you, and understand a bit better if you’re finding that what you’re doing isn’t quite right. Is there something you can change to start teaching high school English? Do you need to take another course or anything? I’m looking forward to finding out ways to develop a passion from all of the things that I really like!

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      • thelifeofasolivagant May 27, 2017 / 07:16

        I haven’t announced anything yet but there are changes in the works for next year 😉

        Like

      • cefpabda May 27, 2017 / 07:25

        Exciting!!! Can’t wait to hear all about it 😁

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